Antinational fangirling

So I’m an undergrad best at procrastinating hence a week before my first end of term paper I’m deciding to set up a new blog. Haha I think it’s the anticipation of the Swiss Immersion and the Korean excursion that’s dislocating me from reality and floating me way up to Lala-land. Even though it’d be summer I’m pretty sure I’m gonna freeze my ass off (wait till the exchange in autumn-winter..darn i might not come back in one piece!) but it’s okaye! I’ll go to Korea after because my oppa promised he would ‘once again warm my heart with undying love’ (haha! what song what song?)…ohh if only.

huhh it’s alot of work leading the double life of a fangirl and an undergrad (stop rolling your eyes you!) but it’s getting pretty fun. during this second sem of my first year I found a way to be both at the same time *cue evil twinkling eyes*. I wrote two term papers on K-pop and Kmovies! Best or what?? Hahah it really is a pretty good way of focusing, merging two interests into one (or one interest and one responsibility that you can’t get out of). And I learnt a whole lot of awesome things. Like who would have thought that me consuming K-pop was ever anti-national? But like yeah I’m realizing my identity becoming even more whacked than before and it was already whacked in the first place. Like as a Malay Muslim living in a secular multi-ethnic country called Singapore that holds on to Confucian values in some aspects but having Javanese-Malay and even Indian ancestors…speaking English and Malay…learning French and Korean..reading Arabic that I don’t understand…whoa my brain hurts already.

So actually summing this all up I find it easier to associate myself as Singaporean – the end. Instead of messing it all up like the above. But also in the wider scheme of things because K-pop is branding itself as an Asian thing, I feel even prouder calling myself an Asian than just limiting myself as Southeast Asian or Singaporean. Huhh..and I voted Rain instead of Stef Sun for the Asian Battle of the Pops and felt like it was not a big deal – it was a rational consumer choice and we’re all Asians anyway. But I guess the thing they were ‘problematizing (oh what a big word) was that it downplays other indigenous cultures and McDonaldizes everything…well it’s not that I don’t care about local culture or whatever but the gazillions of fans really don’t care so much either. So much for Huntington’s ‘clash of civilizations’ loads of fans worldwide are well multicultural and getting along just fine. OR are we kinda blinded by something to see that there is a problem somewhere with this? Hahaha fangirling is the opium of the people – true! That’s the whole point ain’t it, escape? Consumin popular ideals in music and movies? I really didn’t understand that reading. It just feels like a very nice global family atmosphere. Civil societies are healthy for democracies anyway – so says PS1101E lecturer so okay communists might have a problem with this. Anyway I’m learning loadsa things too like technical stuff and doing correspondence with people..it feels like good training in a more comfortable and light setting. Yay fangirling!

i am rather boring huh. what the heck am I talking about anyway? teehee^^