Businessman as a psychopath?!

“ Agent Seaver: Businessman as a psychopath?

Agent Prentiss: They have the same characteristics, they just use their skills differently.”

-       Criminal Minds (CM), Season 6, ’25 to Life’.

 

I was as shocked as Agent Seaver, with the profiling of the ‘Businessman’ as a criminal suspect. (By ‘Businessman’ with a capital ‘B’, I refer to the ultra capitalists such as the multinational corporations, industry moguls, corporate banks, and such, rather than the small medium enterprises, or the petite bourgeoisie. Also ‘Businessman’ rather than ‘businesswoman’ because she is still arguably an anomaly and would be associated with aggressive, masculine attributes anyway, in our phallogocentric society) Yet, I realized it was not from disbelief but of shock that this idea was ‘said out loud’ through the cultural media of the ‘Businessman’ itself (TV shows themselves commodities a product of and contributing to the ‘Businessman’s’ pocket). Granted that the show is fictional, we, the ‘little people’, could see it as a crevice of resistance achieved through the writer. However since it was given space to manifest within the turf of the ‘Businessman’, it could also represent a sadistic ‘tease’ of unattainable resistance, or else an illusory perception of ‘actual resistance’ for temporary catharsis.

Would it be too extreme to call a ‘Businessman’ a psychopath?

Sian in Switzerland

huhh~ today my ‘excursion’ was only to the supermarche because i’m like so sick of travelling hahaha I finally understand why they say Switzerland is boring. Although I’m half sad that I decided not to follow the others on the ferry to Neuchatel today (at the border with France), I’m kinda grateful that I got to SLEEEEPPPP yAAAYYYYY haha because in the weekend we woke up at like 5 or 6 am to go to places in Switzerland faraway from Fribourg.

On Saturday we whacked two cities, St Gallen and Zurich. I guess we shouldn’t have stayed so long in St Gallen because Zurich kinda deserved abit more travel time in the city although everything was really starting to look the same and it was ironic that we ended up shopping/window-shopping in Switz whenever we got bored because we come from Sale Land Singapore. Although I must say the summer sale here is ABSOLUMENT TRES BON MARCHE. Like crazy awesome. Shows how much Singapore sales cheat your feelings if you know what I mean hahaha. I got a megacool Swatch ring in St Gallen, if only because I couldn’t find a Swatch watch I liked and bien sur! I have to get something Swatch! I’m in friggin Switz! hahaha~My ring apparently looks abit tai-tai ish though. heck~

We went to the centuries old UNESCO Heritage Site St Gallen Bibliotheque and it was an amazing building really. Not really into what the architecture is about because I don’t understand the Catholic background but really the construction just takes your breath away. It also kinda puts you in some kinda realization of like WOW!OMD this thing’s been around for ages…I also went to the cathedral. The best thing I like about the French and German parts of Switz is that, perhaps because they are not bigots, they didn’t even look at me funny when they see a tudung girl going around in the cathedral. It’s interesting to go into the cathedral. I was waiting for some kinda ominous feeling that my mum said I would have when I go in but there was kinda not that much or none – dunno whether my Islamic faith is strong or whether I’m already so confused hmmm~

We went up to Home of FIFA in Zurich but it didn’t look like it was a place open to tourists… so sad. And then we went to a Vivo-City place where the other girls went shopping and the few of us when to a little heaven called Burger King for the proper nutrition deprived XD. I miss meat. Truly madly deeply.

On Sunday we went to Lugano….which may have as well been in Italy coz it was like just beside Italy. The travel time there was like 4 hours and I was already so sian when I reaches there and then when we went to Fox Town it was so hot that it felt like we were walking to Giant in JB. The sales were as bon marche as I’d hoped it would be but there were some really good sales like at Esprit where pants and shirts and bags were like for 10. 17, 22, 25 francs which is like MEGACOOL becoz the Esprits in SG really like milk all the money out of you. We were totally zapped of strength by the time we went back to Lugano from Fox Town in Mendrissio and thus again we went to another heaven called McDonalds. But this Macs is like so cool coz the interior is like of ancient but cool architecture. Just that I feel that the custumer service in Italian Switz pales too much in comparison to French and German Switz areas.

After lunch we went to some jetty like thingy and soaked our feet in Lake Lugano…ohh the feeling is tremendous. Just sitting down and stoning at the mountains and the lake is so beautifully clean and green with cute little live ducks and swans and boats and yachts. A good thing to do in summer in Lugano. Then we went to a park nearby to camwhore and take pics of really weird but cool trees then I had Italian gelato. I’ve had so much ice cream to make up for meat deprivation probably (it is my nature to be unhealthy XD) and Movenpick is nicer The McFlurries here are interesting too.. they have M&M, Solero and Daim Caramel. I tried Daim and it rox my sox. But maple walnut Movenpick is still tops.

On the way back from Lugano we were so extremely sian that we really got retarded on the trains. I can only be so grateful that the Swiss are generally nice non-racists who did not chase us out, cuss us or beat us up for the noise we made. One Swiss German was even interested in our little Chinese Dialect tutorial that my friends were having for me. haha this is like the beginning of my research into Development of Deviant Language in Society research hahaha coz I was like learning Hokkien, Cantonese, German, French, Korean curse words. And then my friend thought us a Hokkien song which we remixed into a rock song and we also recreated some kinda Hindustani movie moment inspired by the majestic mountains and green plains which are always in the films. I laughed till i had abs ached and i had a sore throat

I guess it’s cool that we’re travelling in such a fun group that we can laugh our sian away hehe. Next up on the agenda, we still have much of Switzerland to cover as we still haven’t been on our class excursion to Gruyeres, Charmey and Lac Noir, nor our LIA excursion with the De Dardelles to watch the Tour De France, both happening in the Swiss Alps. We also have plans to go back to Luzern and perhaps Bellinzona cause we didnt have time previously, and Geneva, Lausanne and Zermatt await us too. I hope I won’t be so sian on those trips and hopefully Maggi Night tomorrow can recharge my system abit

A bientot!

Jalan-Jalan in Switzerland

Today is Monday and much has happened.

On Saturday Alienor, Marielle’s (our Fribourg IRO coordinator) daughter, brought us on an even better tour of Fribourg’s old town with all the medieval stuff. We walked around for about 3 hours but it didn’t feel so tiring coz the weather was pretty good until we had to climb like so many stairs. We took a gazillion photos and Heidi manage to cook up a Swiss Drama by speculating that Alienor and our other guide were together…complete with paparazzi photos for her fanfic hahaha. And then we ate what may be the biggest individual pizza ever that I’ve eaten. It’s like personal pan pizza times 3!!! Really!! or even four. o.O! Les Germanigues then left on their spontaneous tours and other than being super jealous that they can go just about anywhere in Switz with their rail pass we decided to get rail passes ourselves XD!!

On Sunday we decided to milk the rail pass for all it’s worth (394 CHF !!!!!) and it started out mild enough with plans to go to Interlaken’s limestone caves and taking a ferry ride to Thun but then because it was our destiny (hahahahaa) we ended up going to Grindelwald (actually we just anyhow whack a place to go. Veron chose it coz it sounded like someone from Harry Potter’s name) which is en route to Jungfraujoch!!

Qu’est-ce que c’est Jungfraujoch?? It’s the highest railway station in all of Europe!! Ahhhh omg it’s like tucked away in the mountains. The SNOW CAPPED MOUNTAINS!!! hahaha I had to part with even more francs to get there but the precious two hours we spent there was so worth it. My first time playing in the snow and it’s in the Swiss Alps!! XD but the funny thing was in the caves leading to the outer part of the mountain it was freezing but outside i took off the extra sweater I borrowed coz it was HOT! Heidi got sunburnt and I was slightly sunburnt too! But the place was just like straight outta National Geographic. ahhh!!!! I didn’t want to leave! We were outside until it started SNOWINF yes SNOWING. OMGGGGGG we were freezing but it was so much fun and we even still went to the freakin Ice Palace made well of ice and we froze our little butts off haha. And in that day, we took 8 trains to the top, totally maximising the money we paid for the rail pass mannn if it wasn’t so expensive or far away from where I’m staying I’d wanna go again.

Then today after class we went to Bern, the capital of Switzerland. I think after Jungfraujoch anything else is boring. Well Bern was pretty but it was much like Fribourg just prettier. But the Rose Garden we went to was a really nice place and the grass we lied down on was fantastic. I just wished we’d gone to Einstein’s house. The geek in me is somewhat disappointed.

Haha well I guess that’s all for now. Gotta recount this in French now. T___T”

A tout a l’heurre! XD

Fribourg Resurrects My Blog

It’s so funny my blog has one view in like a few days interval…I think it’s just fad trying to check on whether I update. hahaha okaylahh i update. BUT i am too lazy to put pics here. get your ass to FB for those XD

SOOO…Fribourg has been tres awesome since I’ve got here though it’s kinda like Singapore just that it has better climate, better scenery, nicer people, better shopping, cuter guys on the street (no offence, they are cuter and I don’t even have pink fever if you know what i mean *wink wink* fad) ad]nd so on. Otherwise it’s kinda like SG boring to a certain extent hahah Anyways, to tide by time where you get itchy with nothing to do, it has been absolutely SUPER talking to students from different nations. So far I’ve talked to Indonesian, Indian, Russian, Korean, Brazilian, Tunisian, Portugese, Czech, American, Vietnamese, Chinese, Chilean, Thai students…phew! Really it’s great mais je dois pratique plus de ma francaise parce qu’il est tres mal mais si je suis avec mes amis de Singapour je vais parler en anglaise (to lazy for accents btw). Un autre probleme est si je suis avec mes amis de singapour qui etudier de l’allemande, on parle en francaise et allemand, et si leur ami Olga est avec nous, on va parler en russe aussi! Donc, you can see why I’m not progressing too much. Et si je parle avec mon ami de coreen, je veux parle a coreen aussi! Donc  j’ai de mal a la tete! Ooh la la!

It’s getting really interesting because we’re going to the Black Sea and Gruyeres next week where we will have a pique-nique where you just wanna sing ‘The Hills Are Alive~ With the Sound of Musicccccc~aaaaaahhhhhh~’ and turn around and around in a dress with a really big skirt. hmm~ And I’m getting really comfortable in my dorm though I’m really jealous of the building 9 people who like stay in a condo of a dorm really! But it’s okay! we’ve made building 9 friends so we can look forward to hijacking their pantry now and then (because we have no kitchen) Oh yeah, we’ve hijacked it once when we played dinner guests for our Indo friend Ima whose gonna be doing a Masters (actually most peeps here for the course are doing Masters and PhDs…so we are like les plus jeunes teehee).

What else what else…hmm fad has been asking me about cute guys…well in my class there isn’t any. Like really but they’re nice guys and there’s like an ex-police officer in my class who’s doing criminal science it’ like so CSI! So cool! But there’s one cute guy in French 4 who looks like James Franco and another in French 5 who I think is just so cute with his dark hair and sharp features sighhhh and i think in either French 1 or 2 there is this cute guy who looks Italian/Spanish. And I’m in French 3….totally missed the cute boys express…sighhh. But whatever. i have my dongbang in my computer XD. Although much talk about Korean guys with people who are Korean or have been to Korea, are putting me off them (if that’s the way to put it…hmmm need to fangirl soon or i might ter-dropout of fanaholic hahaha)

Ok lah..I think i’ll stop rambling here. There is much to do like updating pics at FB, mugging to improve my tres horrible french and finding time to help out updating fanaholic.. I kinda miss my family and friends but Fribourg has been really great so far and I’m friggin happy I’m here a month. Wish we could stay for the full 2 months of the course but anyways I’m going to Korea in August. Travelling the world has resurrected my SOUL.hahahah.

A bientot!

the voices within

i am tres dizzy. 

Logic is not automatic. Those who deny it cannot be conquered by it. So says voiceover sometime during last week’s Cold Case episode. But i’m also wondering if it’s possible that on the straight road of rationality, you could fall deep into a pit of nonsense, at the peak, when all combined logics just end up totally rubbish? There are many reasons to do one thing. Good reasons that come together, and then you realize why do you need so many reasons to do something that does not speak to your species being?

Could there be that some logic are not logic at all given unmatched contexts and perspectives?

What is the cost of saying ‘I give up’? Whose house of cards falls? Mine?

As usual i’m not right in the mind. HAHA~ First year of uni officially OVERRR no more noob freshie..i’m gonna have juniors again haha. What was I waiting for the 3 months holidays for? Feels like loads still to do. Gotta wrap up my SOE stuff, gotta try that essay thingy, gotta do planning for ROW, gotta plan for Switz and Korea, gotta do fanaholic, gotta work, gotta tutor….ahhhhh~ i think come august when the term starts again, no questions about it, i’d be dead beat. Grrr~that’s why I’ve been taking drugs. Haha ^^ now now hold back the urge to dial 999 or IMH my drugs are well not really drugs. i don’t really know what to call them anymore. They accelerated from an entity I don’t give a crap about, to something pretty nice, to something really awesome, to an obsession, to a makemeperfectIMHcandidate and now. It’s just IT. Is IT even a burden now? Hmmm~ IT’s definitely impractical baggage. But baggage i cannot just throw away. IT’s appended itself to my existence. I’m rooted in IT. We cannot let each other go. We feed on each other’s lives. Scary ah~Now I know why I scared people with IT. IT’s starting to scare me now too. Hmm hmmm~

Antinational fangirling

So I’m an undergrad best at procrastinating hence a week before my first end of term paper I’m deciding to set up a new blog. Haha I think it’s the anticipation of the Swiss Immersion and the Korean excursion that’s dislocating me from reality and floating me way up to Lala-land. Even though it’d be summer I’m pretty sure I’m gonna freeze my ass off (wait till the exchange in autumn-winter..darn i might not come back in one piece!) but it’s okaye! I’ll go to Korea after because my oppa promised he would ‘once again warm my heart with undying love’  (haha! what song what song?)…ohh if only. 

chronic dbskaholism

you got me under your skin

I am ill. 

Sick in the brain and feverish with chronic dbskaholism. 

OMONA 

(who’s mona?) 

my mind is just saturated with them

it’s terminal like cancer.

the more i think of it it is also like an addiction like everytime i turn on my changmin (teehee i named my mac after him.sounds wrong though but heck) i will automatically go to youtube and right on the homepage if farahmicky hasn’t uploaded a dbsk something youtube reccomends me dbsk vids anyway. im going outta my mind!!!!yaaaaa!!!

 i need me some pills.

black black heart

is there already a record for getting the most number of psycho driving instructors assigned to you? i think i should apply. i get stuck with the most…problematic ones. there’s pms uncle, playwithwindow uncle, shakeleglikewanttopee uncle, lamejokeshouldjustshutup uncle and today i got religiousfundamentalist uncle. huhhhhh aigoooo like what the heck..why can’t we just PARK????im having enough trouble maneouvering the car i don’t need to be indoctrinated with deviant religious SOTs at the same time, and especially not at 8am on a saturday morning, after a late nite of watching dbsk vids and before coffee!!!Like whattheheck is your problem?go do something else you ironic old man who accuses handbrakes and gearsticks of being evil and killing the earth but duh you’re supporting the car industry coz you’re teaching successive generations of car users coz what the heck would drivers do other than buy cars or rent cars to drive????SHIB@%!

i needs ta go swimming.or cut my hair. or do meditation…huhhh

go go power rangers

do you know how tiring anger and mania is? 

very

and it’s so not conducive for me being an intellectual. 

i think my IQ has dropped severely due to fangirling and unrestricted internalized violence (that is the approximate description for the animosity towards nothing and everything in general that i have been feeling lately)

and mid term break is already around the corner which means i have something due; an essay or two before midterm break crap! i can’t even remember what subject the essay(s) are for.

i keep losing sight of what i’m trying to find.

there is always some other noise and something else to see

sorry for turning my blog into a place to rant about driving instructors and to showcase the downtrend of my mug-abilities. i miss the constraints of lower education.ha.

2009

its already been 6 days since 2009 came a-knockin. it was an interesting start of the year. i started very optimistic coz for some reason 2008 stank. and just like what ms peh said about our maths midterms the last time, when you’re so low, there’s no place to go but up.

min’s sister gave birth 2 days before the new year and it was an interesting thing to go visit her. it was like..a kinda realization..for me it was a kinda reminder that God is around and He’s ultimately the ‘playwright’ of life kinda. Birth is like confirmation of God to me. Like the origin of our existence and stuff (i realize im talking like a ditz kinda..but i digress..)

and then on new year’s itself we went to visit dad’s grave..it was a beautiful day.with wind that reminded me of windstruck. maybe he was even there. it was also interesting to trek back out to the bus stop which was way outside and far from the new cemetery grounds. but still, everything about going to visit him and going home…oddly felt beautiful.

im back to bidding for mods and a new sem is around the corner. time just flashes past like it needs to urgently go to the loo.heh.

i guess whatever it is im looking forward to what 2009 has to offer or even what it might take from me. not much i hope though. resolutions…umm im just gonna try and be good as much as i can..which can be many things…and also definitely to keep up my CAP..though this sem i didnt realize but im taking lots of lvl 2 mods..hope its gonna be alright

sing until your lungs give out

this aint a scene it’s a * damn arms race!!!

been some time since i heard that song. so teen angst. so noisy. and so reminds me of jc history. what the heck..arms race? detente?reagonomics??nightmare trigger much.

i remember telling an online friend that if it gets too loud then you’re too old. well im too old for messy songs. im moving on to foreign, unfathomable songs sung by cute angels wheee ever since i had that dream about max ive been googling his pics..okay not as often as a fangirl.i got shat to do. but he’s so cute.anyway..

yesterday i had a driving class right and i blogged about not getting that diva. bt well. how lucky am i to be blessed with his presence. i think God wants me to confront the road rage in me and KILL it.but he wasn’t PMS-ing yesterday, and luckily so, it was the first time i was driving in the rain and he didn’t give me much of a reason to commit murder-suicide.hehe. im not gonna pray to not get him anymore. i’ll just be allocated. God knows best?

i think i might be put in an uncomfortable situation soon. there was this cartoon that said ‘growing up means growing apart’. growing up, there have been people ive begun to just not get. or they don’t get me. and we’re just like strangers bunched together sometimes. but sometimes its ok. but sometimes it feels like im ‘entertaining’ them and their ways.hmmm. growing up hasn’t been as fun as i’d thought it’d be. but i dont wanna be in stasis or go back to my childhood either no way. i guess c’est la vie. shit happens. but sometimes good shit happens too.  

well i guess we just gotta live out our lives..we might be lucky enough to find a purpose…or just wait for that physics thingy to blow up into a black hole..or another ‘gift’ from God slated to be delivered within the next 30 years.

*shrugs*

 

4.1

whee… the day kinda started good before i even woke up.or else especially before i woke up..heee i had a dream about choikang changmin, the youngest member of my beloved dbsk he is so super cute 

and then i woke up to check my exam results. it was better than i expected. not bad at all. dont wanna boast but i got  a 4.1!scholars would be rolling their eyes at me but really for me this is a huge achievement. but i hope it’s not just because my combi is kinda easier than other people’s except for that really crap subject called philosophy which thank God i passed. But i guess it’s not that easy except for SEA which was an absolute blast to do. i hope i do as well on the next SEA module im planning to take. Soci was..ok.i thought it was hard but i did ok for my assignments and scraped an A- . A minus like you’re still not good enough. Grading has a way of demoralizing sometimes huh. Why couldn’t they have just left that bloody A alone?? I also got an A- for french..which is umm..interesting. i better revise before i start semester again and live up to the pretty good grade i got. and in preparation for *insyallah* an immersion trip to France or Switzerland next hols!! i really wanna go. hopefully my cap is good enough to get that immersion award but i guess even though i didnt do badly for English Lit a B+ feels kinda sad. It’s like falling out with an old lover. I didn’t even try that hard to do better. Didn’t even finish three of the four texts i was tested on.heheh. wonder if that much more effort could have gotten me a 4.5. i think tts a first class hons. God i hope i can maintain this until i graduate. it’d be sad to be ahead now and trail behind later :p

and then i went for my driving lessons. when i got there and looked at the allocation slip i was like @#$%^&*()_…i was assigned that old diva again. i think God gave me a 4.1 to remind me there’s more to life than old divas and not to commit suicide on the road or something. -_-” i really wanted to practice all the korean song had taught me and the korean song has taught me is not clean at all heh. well i just tuned out the racket like he was going blah blah blah yellow box blah blah clutch blah blah freewheeling and i just pretended to do a right blindspot check to roll my eyes and curse under my breath.  how lucky am i? so many instructors and i’ve been assigned to this dude three times. God please don’t make it four or more.PLZZZZ!!!